i've never felt so uncertain and fearful about exams. But it's really getting on nerves knowing that i'm so not motivated to study and that i'm so unsure about how much knowledge i've obtained from what i've studied. i know there are alot of things to study and i'm not even halfway there. everyone seems to be so discipline and focus but what is happening to me?!?! i don't feel a single bit focus at all and not to mention that i'm easily swayed by temptations, ie the teevee, the fridge, the food and the computer.

WHAT IS SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH ME?!?!
JO, PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER!
YOU GOT TO STUDY!
AND YOU GOT TO STUDY HARD!
YOU CAN'T LOSE OUT!
GO JO!
YOU CAN DO IT!
JO, YOU CAN DO IT!!!
GO GO GO!!!

PS: i think i'm going crazy. the uncertainty and underconfidence is really killing me. I NEED TO FIND MY MOTIVATION. JO, YOU CAN DO IT!

maybe i've given myself too much things to handle already.
i'm trying my best to catch up on my readings as well as my tutorials.

school, tuition, and cca-s.
i want a packed school life, but i'm wondering if i'm prepared to take in whatever i've put myself into.
ultimately, i'm telling myself that it's the degree that matters.
so school work is essentially and ultimately my number one priority.

JO, YOU CAN DO IT!
GAMBATTE!

PS: i don't know why, but i sense my fetish for takuya is growing even more by the day. i can't help but missed looking at him even on the net. am i too much of a takuya fan already?

it's sad to say but it's true. my TRI-UNI group is not at all bonded despite the fact that we won third place for the whole camp. 20 free film garde movie tickets but only 3 people spending it. what a sad sad fact.

anyway, i watched a total of 5 movies yesterday in the movie theatre.
UP - sweet show!
Overheard - not bad.
Hangover - indecent comedy
Orphan - seriously good thriller!
Where got ghost? - boring!

never in my life had i watched so many movies in one day.
but it wasn't a bad experience. only that i felt i kind of wasted my time watching all these movies for the whole day.
got home at about 6am in the morning because Orphan started at 12.30am and Where got ghost aired at 3.30am.
i was so drained that i overslept and missed rag day. SHEESH!

felt so guilty to rachel because i didn't turn up to meet her in school.
I'll make it up to you, rach!
i promise, cross my heart.

i'll be meeting the 07S201 tmr!! i'm so looking forward to it. it's been a while since we had class outing together.
07S201 ftw!

i'm in distress.
new school, new people, new environment.
there's just too many changes going on in such a short time.
i don't know if i can click well with the people in my class.
neither do i know if i can adapt to the new school system.
everything is so confusing and i'm feeling so lost.
just the bidding system alone has given me too much stress and frustrations to think about.


well, i just got into a conflict with my mum.
damn! just when i'm in the midst of all these changes, relationship with my mum have to become this bad.
i just think i have the world's most sensitive and petty mum ever.
i have ego and pride also. so i'm not going to apologize for such a minor matter that she's making a big fuss out of.
i'm trying not to give a damn care about this strain between us but i just i still do slightly care.

ARGH!
why must things be like this?!?!
why can't everything just go smoothly?!?!

i just finished watching the special episode of ZETTAI KARESHI. it's such a funny and cute show but the ending was pretty sad.


anyway, the guy above is the one of the main leads of the show. His name is HAYAMI MOKOMICHI. He acted as Night Tenjo, the robot in ZETTAI KARESHI and i think he's really good. well, part of the reason why i think he's good is because of his look. but you got to admit it, he's actually quite hot. Plus, i see some similiar trades between him and TAKUYA KIMURA. Guess i'm really into japanese actors. HAHA!

Well, everyone seems to be pretty busy with their own things lately. Plus, school is starting in about 2 to 3 weeks time. My weekdays are completely taken up by work and i'm hoping to spend my weekends with the people i love before school officially starts. It's been a while since i met up with the cousins and the front rowers. I'll be meeting with the SPURTS this sat so that's something to look forward too. Harry Potter 6, here i come! HAHA!

i wonder what everyone else is up to?

PS: should i cut my hair?